My little fantasy story was inspired by another. The Malazan Book of the Fallen by Steven Erikson. The story's structure and multi-character POV, for instance. As well as a few other stories, like Trudi Canavan's The Black Magician trilogy, Berserk and Claymore mangas and a few other small influences from certain video-games.
But what made me write my story was this need to escape somewhere. I was in a somewhat darker headspace back when I began writing. I did not think much of what I could turn it into, but I felt the need to put the place where I escaped in my mind into writing. As a sort of diary. Back then, IT was not really a story, but something purely for my own sake. Sure, I talked about the idea that I would probably try to find a publisher or something, but it was really half-hearted. I did not think much other than being able to leave a record of where I've been, so-to-say.
The story isn't that dark really, but there are several passages in several character's stories where they are unraveling similar thoughts and mental obstacles as I did. Unfortunately, this dark or sometimes realism bordering undertone may be detrimental to the story, I sometimes think. It's difficult to put the thoughts I had into coherent words, but I will leave this small "poem" here that I made as I began putting my fantasy into writing.
What if I were gifted my dreams?
The ideal built by my mind, desired by my heart.
A world both bitter and sweet,
where I could enjoy every bit of the happiness.
And even the sadness, unknowingly though.
Could I remember the reality?
Or would I remember a dream?
