Long time, no post.
As we all know, my sole purpose in this forum is to revive old threads.
I've been working hard on a few different projects lately. MorMac is steadily coming along, and Astroturf Battlefield got a nice little upgrade. (There actually should be an update within the next week or so.) I actually came up with a couple of ideas for Tapas. One I've been sitting on for a long little while.
Now... a question: I think I might join Writer's Camp. Do you think it's too late? 
As of now i am starting to finish the 7th episode of my fisrt series, Grotheske, here in Tapas. And i must say i am very excited and happy about this particular episode. Where i reveal one of my most guarded secrets about the story. The orign of how Roger and Voluptia met in the first place and how Grotheske came to be between them. Grotheske is a story that i have full plan of expanding. This is only the first case, that the reader is getting to know but they have a lot of story and other cases that they solved together before. I want to finish it and to double check this episode, publish it and then go to work in the other series that i am deveping with a friend.
It's good to be excited about writing an episode, especially when it's one where a great mystery is finally revealed! I hope that it goes well; it sounds like you're putting a lot of work into it.
06:23 AM
I tried to set regular update on monday, but now it's Saturday and I haven't write anything real. I feel like abandoning it for a while due to insecurities, feeling it's worthless, looming fear of people not liking it or straight up ignoring it 
the previous chapter isn't received very good (less comments and likes) so I feel demotivated continuing.
Perhaps I will delay it, or resort to cram the writing into one night and abandon proofreading whatsoever (like I did ever proofread). It's not the most exciting part anyway, plus I'm busy preparing presentations and stuffs 
I also tried to do collab with someone from here. I'm excited but nervous about it, especially about the execution. We haven't been discussing again (I feel bad) but I think the idea is already pretty solid 
4:40PM
My time the forums has been scarce lately. I'm so busy but here I am getting ready to see down and do some reworking for Fox Trap and of course working on keeping up a buffer for my other two novels. I'm so grateful to our community for being so supportive and wonderful.
@Penni Big mood. I think I just came back to the forum after months (??) of inactivity. I'm here to use my necromantic talents on old threads, boiz, hahaha. You deserve all the support! You put out really interesting works, and it's cool to see the writers blossom on this platform.
@kainatarma I'm sorry to hear about the [lessened] reception that you've gotten on your work. It sucks when reception comes and goes steadily, and it hurts especially with the doubt and self-consciousness start to set in.
The best thing to do is to start focusing inward and think about how you feel about the piece and what your intent with it is. For example, ask yourself: do you want to continue making the work for your own satisfaction? Or do you want to do more to make it popular? Whatever answer you come to is fine; it's just about being honest and helping yourself focus. Don't feel any shame in stepping back to work on the piece either.
I've been feeling it pretty hard for this 2019 piece that I'm working on, and I just keep hitting wall after wall. I'm trying to do something fun with it. I've taken up writing prompts, and I'm just writing short, meaningless stories to help establish the characters and their world. I'm listening to music and making scenes off those. Or watching movies to try and get into the overall feel. You know stuff like that. Maybe you might have to just put it aside for a bit and come back to it. (A little unannounced hiatus is always a fun route, hahaha.) But like you said, delay it or cram it all into one night of free-balled writing. Whatever you come up to, do what's best for you, and I hope everything works out! Good luck with that and your collab.
6:25pm
Am home. Ate a food. Very tired.
Going to try and spit out an update or two. I've received a lot more subs for three books that aren't my contest book. While I enjoy having the growing audience, it makes my new book feel more and more like wasted effort. Frustration and depression has gotten me smoking and drinking again and I'm honestly not even concerned. I feel like being cleaner only made my writing more difficult. I'm ready get work done and just be my old tired buzzed self.
Thank you!
Of course, us all who posted online want to be noticed to some degree (if not, I'll make it stay unpublished like many pieces I have made). I honestly don't wanna be popular in the specific, only the sheer sense of acknowledgement that comes with it I want to know what people think about it, because I have no one to share my work with in real life.
(yes, people argue that acknowledgement should come from oneself. I think of this as false encouragement and lying to myself, also can give me imminent disappointment. I meant if I think of me as grand but others don't agree, and the reality doesn't match; what for? It's delusional.)
It's more like "Well, no one is waiting for next chapter so why get hyped writing it? I can postpone it once I feel actually want to" rather than "No one is waiting for the next chapter so I will stop writing it for now" 
it have bought me chances to relax.
Honestly, cramming cause more idea to flow for me and increased productivity. May it writing academic assignments and report or creative writing. I'm type of a person who can't do it until I feel like it
Also good luck in your work. Thank you!
@ISNEKO Man, I understand this a lot, but I feel that there's just a bit more of a contest to retain audiences here on Tapas. Because novels are a more sit down kind of engagement, it can be a lot more 'private' for some people. There's a sense of quiet commentary [good or bad] or appreciation from readers, and I feel that that makes it harder to get the engagement one is looking for, especially when it's a purposeful concentrated effort. All of this to say, please take care of yourself. It's so easy to dip one's pen in the familiar black well, but I've faith in you. You produce a lot of good quality work; it could just be a matter of trying to intentionally market towards what you series you specifically want highlighted. If there's anything we can do to help, def throw some ideas out!
@kainatarma I mean, yes, in essence, one should be able to find pride in one's own work. But there's nothing wrong in wanting to engage an audience. It's a sincere answer, and I'm glad to hear it!
I completely understand what you mean, haha, but if it brings you a chance to relax, then it's good! All the best.
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I'll update with my own progress report since it's been a while.
20:55
I can clearly hear the water boiling in the pot while I type this, so I'll be quick. I'm speeding ever steadily towards my fifteen episode goal. I'm writing all the episodes I don't have queued yet, and then I'm going back to editing it. I've had this idea in the back of my head for about a year plus, wow!
Also, trying to plan the back bone of this 2019 project, and I'm happy to say that I think I've finally made a breakthrough. I promised myself I would take an hour to relax after work, so I'm gonna play Final Fantasy until the mood strikes me to make my MC more miserable, hahaha!
Thank you!
And your explanation to ISNEKO opened a new understanding to me! Silent reader is big here too, I just realized. I sometimes want Tapas have feature to unpublish my work like Wattpad so my view to sub ratio won't be so big
Right, Tapas word editor should be more complete like Wattpad.
Silent readers are a very big thing. They'll comment when/if they feel the need. It sucks, but is inevitable xD
Do you comment on everything you read?
I was thinking this site is a more feedback-oriented thing as there are so many creators I was wrong (have been three months active here, but not accustomed yet). Actually it's a bit relaxing to know it that way, so I don't fret over it I meant it's normal.
I think all people here have a moment when they read and don't comment, something I don't really mind either if I'm in receiving end (I meant I do it too, would be a bit hypocritical if I want all my readers to be active while I can't do the same)
I usually more inclined to spam likes (sorry people), because I feel like I can't always contribute something meaningful or praise without sounding like fake bastard I also use that as a sign I will revisit the work later to comment... Unfortunately my memory is something else.
Great! You may feel that way because of how creator-oriented the forums are, which on the main site is the complete opposite.
So that's it? That's why I always feel the site is kind of boring and intuitively lacks communication? 
(I meant there are so many thing should be improved with the site's social fuction. Everything's all over the place)
Thank you, new knowledge everyday
Definitely i love my characters and they are getting very nice. Just need to improve my english but i think the story itself helps to make it interesting so far. Yes i am putting all my heart and soul in this series and the next one. It is wonderful do something that you like to do a lot. Like this.
7:03AM
I have 5 projects I'm working on and it kills me to have to put a hold on my original two that I wanted to make. Granted, I don't have to put 'em on hold, but I wanna keep a consistent focus on my smaller ones for a while. My main zombie novel has kinda.. burnt me out a bit? The nature of the first few chapters is very bleak and dreary as it focuses on the solitude that my main character faces in there. I'm composing music for it as well, and the music easily reflects that same atmosphere, so it's a little expected that I'd be kinda tired of working on it.
So, I resorted to working on these other ideas. A one-shot drama about the devil's relationship with an angel, and the implications of such for both of them, and God's opinion of all of it, set in late Victorian era London. And another one-shot shounen (though I've been thinking, it might actually be closer to seinen) about two siblings hunting down a demon as they're looking for a missing person in modern-day Japan. Both of these are sorta what I need to keep myself in a creative headspace, so I'm happy about that. Not sure if I wanna compose music for these as well, but I wouldn't mind doing so~
All in all, I'm happy where I'm at. It might be exhausting at times, but.. as long as I get a good story out of it, right?
6:28 PM
Avoiding writing the next chapter of Twisted Tales. The d*mn story is technically finished, but chapters 1 through... like, 39 need such heavy editing that I'm essentially rewriting every single one (cutting most entirely, thank god).
For some reason, this editing process is killing me. I keep feeling like "I already wrote all this, can't I be done already???"
Instead, I've been starting oh, three new projects instead. Wait, four. I don't have enough time in the day to devote to one, but here I am. I desperately want one of them to be a comic/graphic novel, but I tried my hand at it and failed miserably, and I don't have enough income right now to offer to pay someone else to draw it for me. I'm still going to write it as a novel, but I just know in my gut that it ought to be a comic. Ah well.
I'm specifically here because I'm procrastinating writing the chapter that was due today. Where the heck did the week go? Alright, alright. I'm gone. I'll go do it.
@JBrentonParker Hahaha. I totally get you. If writing's the slow death, then editing's absolutely the final blow! Maybe at some point you'll be able to turn your novel into a comic. Don't give up and work hard.
I can't wait to read. (But good luck! You've a couple of months. Do your best~)