Or from one game to the next...or one Netflix show to the next (Netflix originals are still a thing, right? I see more of the Amazon ones these days)...
Just now I saw a trailer for an anime I've been looking forward to for two years...it's supposed to come out in January 2020 (my birthday month; whoo~!) and I found myself thinking "that better be the actual release date...how else am I gonna live until January?"
And I just kinda paused and considered how...odd it was for me to think that.
I've heard that's the sort of thing that helps a lot of suicidal people to hang on...and of course the automatic reaction is to scoff and say 'seriously; all you have to live for is a new anime season??' but hey, if that's what brings you enough joy to keep you from sinking into the darkness, it's all good, right? It's better than nothing.
I'm not even suicidal, though...even to say I'm depressed would be a stretch. ^^; But somehow, it's still stuff like that that motivates me to not...curl up under the covers and give up on the world, I guess.
The temptation is strong...I'm still convinced that the stress of school is slowly killing me; every year I add a new bottle to my medicine drawer. And I don't even want to talk about my art...yesterday my ma asked me how my YouTube channel was going (once upon a time, I was on the doorstep of monetization and like a fool I thought it would last, so I told people about it)...I don't know how I got through that conversation...
I like being outside, but I'm sick of the heat and my summer wardrobe is lame...I just want the year to end already. And if not for the third season of The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel this December, I'm not even sure I could make it until then...
TL;DR, life is hard and I'll take motivation wherever I can get it...