As someone who's dealt with a lot of mental health struggles for almost as long as I can remember (depression, s**cidal tendencies,) it makes it's way into many of my stories to some capacity. "Damsel in the Red Dress" has a lot of themes revolving around depression, social anxiety, and recovery, though it's still a romance drama.
I wanted to show the realism of these struggles by not making my FL, Alicia's, recovery entirely linear.
Sometimes you'll have several days in a row where you're motivated to care for yourself and do better, and sometimes the world seems to drop out from under you and you struggle to find any reason to want to keep going.
The first chapter itself is inspired by the frustrating sort of depression I was going through at the end of last year where I couldn't even feel as happy as I wanted to be about what should have been the biggest day of my life because it didn't even seem to completely register.
It's definitely heavy in some places, with heavier chapters still that haven't even come out yet, but for me, and a lot of other writers I think, expressing the things we've felt like this is a form of recovery, and also a way of letting other people feel seen, know they aren't alone, and that there is hope.
Rigamarole also has a lot of mental health themes, and is a bit darker than "Damsel in the Red Dress" in general. I've suffered from pretty unhealthy eating habits, constantly eating below maintenance to try to lose weight, so these experiences were channeled into Riley's depression and eating disorders.
It's a struggle wanting to be loved and feel beautiful, no matter what gender you are, and that's part of why I feel showing a boy with an eating disorder is important to this story. His older sister is the "knight in shining armor" if you will trying to rescue him from his quickly worsening depression and dangerous mindset, but again, I want to show the humanity and reality of these emotions.
They don't always "look sad" but that doesn't mean they aren't suffering. Leia has depression too, but she's choosing to fight for herself and her little brother to try to help both of them make it out of this darkness in one piece, and the emotions they both feel during this process is very real.
I hope my stories can show people with depression, anxiety, and eating disorders that they aren't "weird" "gross" "dysfunctional" people or anything else. They are just normal people who can be treated like normal people even though they need help, and also remind them that we're not alone.
I also want to show the importance of having people there who will love and support you throughout your hard times, and maybe give people who haven't felt these things and chance to feel and understand the mindsets of those who do.
(this is free to read for everyone on my Patreon public posts
If your mental health is suffering, please know that it doesn't have to be forever. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, we just have to keep moving forward toward it.