...his voice was low and distant. āAzreth⦠You⦠Donāt have to do this.ā
I was completely taken aback and confused by his sudden words. āDo what?ā
He still wouldnāt look at me, but did contract a bit in his spot⦠I could tell he was uncomfortable. āPity me.ā
I shook my head appalled. āIām not pitying you Vernon!ā
āItās what everyone else doesā¦ā He said in a cold tone, like he was trying to wound me, I could feel his intent. I could tell that came from a dark place in him, his voice trembled. āThey just, look at me, and they think⦠āPoor redmane, sad and aloneā⦠āMaybe I can make him better?ā, āMaybe he will be fine if I do this or thatā.ā
āIām fine! you donāt have to be here just so I donāt feel alone⦠If you want to, you can just leave while I sleep and then⦠Then everything will be fine, you will be miles away and Iām gonna be just fine.ā
āI was a mess for a long time before you arrived, and Iāll continue to be a mess whether youāre here or not⦠I⦠Itās best if you just go Azreth, nothing good is going to come for you for staying with me⦠People are gonna hate you, despise you, treat you like they treat me.ā
āAnd not just that, Iām not worth that much! Iām a sickly guy with just a bunch of problems and no solutions or anywhere to go. I donāt have anything, I will never be successful, or rich, people are not going to just like me, and I am not some sort of hero⦠Iāll be happy if can make it past thirty without any permanent disabilities! And Iām pretty sure Iām going to die before thenā¦ā
āThere is just no future with me Azreth⦠Just this VOID of wasted opportunities, and time⦠Youāre better off without me, youāre so amazing and perfectā¦. Please⦠Donāt waste your time on me.ā