Okay, this sounds fun. I'm a freshman in highschool right now, and this all took place in the first few months of my semester.
I go to an art school, and I had to audition, and I met this girl, right?
Her name was lucinda.
She seemed nice enough, so after school started and I realized we had both gotten in, I invited her to join my friend group.
I suppose I should add that I have a very death centric sense of humor, I.e (to the right you will see beautiful mountains native to our coast, above, the gorgeous turquoise sky, and to our right, the ditch where I hide the bodies.)
So I joked about that kind of thing regularly,
oh, and ha,
also, one time I was able to bring a needle onto a plane hidden in a mechanical pencil. I could have probably used it as a shank? I didn't mean to bring it, but I had made it as an experiment, and it got mixed up with my other pencils. Oops.
AAANYWAY,
so I would joke about death, and tell stories like that.
She was pretty badass herself though, like, she had scars from this one time she dove out a window, bragged about sending her brother to the hospital twice, etc, so I thought we would get along great!
But, one day, I kind of just lost my shit.
I had a fever, and I was on my period, but my dad made me go to school anyway.
It all started with the bottle flip game.
I remember thinking about how fucking superficial that thing is... that game. How there is no reward, no point, and no reason.
Then I started expanding that.
I looked at the people who were playing it, and realized that every little god damn thing about them was superficial.
They don't need a god damn snap back hat, why the fuck do they have that why the fuck is that a thing there is no purpose and the psychological need that it somehow manages to address is a broken piece of shit if it allows that to exist.
Then I applied that to school, and jobs, and society, and life, aaaand, I started crying.
I really thought in that moment that we shouldnt exist. I shouldnt exist.
I went to see the counselor, but she did little to console me.
She was pretty much just like "hmm. Yep, seems about right. Don't kill yourself tho"
So I go out to lunch, tear stains black with eyeliner, hair out, and smudged lipstick.
I couldn't give less of a shit at the time. I confronted my friends, particularly my religious ones. I'm an atheist... and, honestly, Religion pisses me off a little bit. Not the religious, I have no problem with people who disagree with me, it's just... ugh, it's frustrating how easy that would be. It'll all be okay, because jesus mother fucking loves me, right?
anyway...
Lucinda was sitting with them, as well as the rest of them, and I went on my little tangent.
I talked about how we shouldn't be here, and how fake everyone is, but one quote I was forced to stick to was "I just want this whole place to fucking burn." I wasn't specifically referring to the school, but that's how it was taken.
Lucinda and my friend Ollie reported me to the principle.
Ollie, because he thought I was going to kill myself, and Lucinda because she thought I was going to kill someone else.
I got suspended for a week, which gave me time to calm down.
I lost my girlfriend right after all that though, so that was it's own god damn fantastic little drama fest.
Once I returned, I had a pretty good hold of myself.
I was able to deduce that Lucinda had been one of the people to report me based on the details of said report, but I was intent on remaining her friend.
I didn't want her to think I was holding a grudge.
We would chase each-other, and hug, and I would link arms when I walked with her.
Eventually, she reported me for that too.
I don't know why, really, haha.
I guess she was still scared, but didn't want to say so for the sake of her whole badass persona.
The principle told me he wanted to meet with me and my parents over the weekend, but my mom ended up going without me. She thought he would be more likely to go back on a decision if I wasn't around.
But, when she got there, a squad car was waiting for me. I know it was for me because the police lady's business card was in my file.
He fucking invited me to the school just to have me fuckign arrested and he is such a manipulative bastard and fodiuag,
anyway.
I was suspended for two weeks, and if I get reported again, I'm going to be expelled. Lucinda and I worked things out in the counselors, and part of it was that she had a lot of traumatic shit happen to her at her old school when it came to violence... a group of girls trapped her between two seats in the bus and beat the shit out of her... she had a broken nose from that, and has lots of scars to prove other fights. Anyway, she still felt like I applied to that environment. We're actually friends now, again, and I doubt she's going to do anything like that again... she didn't know that they would take it that seriously. That's my story, any way, feel free to ask any questions.