My guy I totally understand the way you feel. Your idea is really special to you and you want it to be the best it can possibly be, so you want to find someone or something that can make your vision come to life. I get it because in a lot of ways I am like that, and I think a lot of people who want to make anything creative are like that.
Here’s the thing though, if you really are anything like me you are letting your perfectionism hold you back. You’re happy with your idea now, but who’s to say that in another month or another year you won’t be happy with it again? Who’s to say that you’re not happy with the art in another years time or you find some other flaw you want to fix? The way I see it is that your options for the baseline problem is to hire an artist to draw your idea for you, which is really expensive and forming partnerships can be dicey,or to learn to draw better which is something you seem uncomfortable approaching since it’s something that you’ve tried before but it hasn’t bore fruit like you had hoped. That is completely fine and I understand.
However even if you do do those things I don’t think that they will solve the underlying problem, which is your perfectionism. Personally what I think you really need is to let go of the perfect vision of your comic that you have in your head. I need you to realize that the idea of your story can not and will not ever exist in reality. I know that that can be a bitter pill to swallow, but if you keep trying to translate thoughts onto paper it’s just not going to work out. This is something that I had to learn about myself too. What you really need to learn is to have fun making your project. Even if the art is bad and the writing is crappy if you enjoy the process and you actually create something and have a physical thing in front of you then that is a thousand times more valuable then just having the perfect creation just right in front of you. You believe in your story and you want it to be the best it can be because you want to put your best foot forward and you want everyone in the world to see your vision. I get it, I really do. But if your vision really is as great as you think it is then it won’t matter if the art is bad or the story has some flaws. Comic readers care far more about story then you might think. While it is important to initially attract readers with pretty art and a flashy thumbnail once the story gets into the hundreds of chapter that starts to matter less and less.
To me the thing that seems to be holding you back the most is you. I know because I see a lot of myself in what you’ve been writing, and once I’ve realized that the only thing holding me back is perfectionism and ego I actually started making a project that I’m really happy with. Like, I am happy with the story I’m making right now and I am happy with my art. Both the writing and art are far from perfect and I still plan on improving but I am so close to having that first chapter done and I’m almost ready to share that vision with the rest of the world and my only regret is that I didn’t do it sooner. My only regret is that I hadn’t done it sooner. So I really strongly recommend that you just put your stuff out there, even if you’re not happy with the writing and the art and you try to focus on curbing your perfectionism. We really don’t have as much time as we like to think and it would suck if your vision were to never exist because of perfectionism.