Hey guys, I hope things will be different when we reach this goal. I know there is a mega thread for milestones but I think what I want to talk about goes beyond that. You might think I’m crazy, but my comic just reached 500 subs, but I am not happy. I remember celebrating like crazy when we reached 250 milestones and saying 500 is the next one. I was looking toward this for so long, but when the day finally came, I’m not even able to smile and feel joy. And let me tell you that is a horrible feeling. There are so many people who support me and helped me to get this far, but I just feel sad and like someone punched me in the face today.
You see, subs don’t mean you will automatically get popular and your comic will make thousands of dollars per month. I’m well aware many of those subs are not active readers, that’s how it goes with every comic. But I can see many people fixate on numbers, mainly on subs and I tell you to stop that. Because one day that fixation may kick your butt. But who knows, maybe you do comics just for fun. However, that is not my case. I do this for living, so I can finally get my own place to live. You don’t have to tell me how slim such chances are and how long it takes, I know that. And I do anything I can to help the situation, but you know, tough luck. But today made me think.
I was looking for this milestone for so long, but when the day comes, I’m not happy. I live in a very desperate situation and sometimes things get very harsh. And it also happened today. It’s not the first time in my life when bad things happen when I should celebrate, but I’m just tired of it. No matter what I do, no matter what I achieve, something will come and make me feel like sitting, no matter the success. I don’t even know why I write this here, maybe I just want you all to remember that no matter what you achieve in your life, something can always get you from behind. Mainly when you feel like you have no future.
I really hope that when we reach 1000, I’ll be happier and finally celebrate as I should. Maybe my comic will finally make enough money to help me move out of here and I will have some hope for the future. Never think that if you achieve something, you’ll be fine forever.
Those who follow me, thank you all for getting me here, just getting to that number means a lot. Without all of you, this day would be so much worse. It doesn’t feel right to feel like this, when I know there are so many people who follow me.
If you want to check the comic, you can do so here
There is also my Patreon. If you like the story, you can ready pretty far ahead there and get some stuff
God damn it, this days sucks, but I guess there is nothing else than move forward