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Jan 2021

Niceee! Getting your work out there!

That's such a neat origin. A class assignment that really got wings and took off. It's cray sometimes how things can start off as something one-off but then take root and take over in your brain. It's good to see you were able to come back to making comics woot!

Thanks for sharing <3

Hahah, it be like that sometimes. But like you got the story down pact, it you wanted to do anything else with it, it would be easier to translate for sure.

Congrats on sticking to it and getting them pages done!!

Origin:
I was raised by some super extremely religious people who homeschooled, homechurch, and cut me off from society. I didnt have friends and wasnt allowed to access most modern media (absolutely no modern music. Most TV and music was off limits.) Even with the homeschooling I didnt always have access to real material because my parents didnt really believe women needed an education. And felt college was a waste of money.
The only thing I was given access to was the internet because my parents didnt really know enough about tech to know they would have wanted to censor that. I met a ton of people online who taught me about the world. And I was convinced I wanted more from my life. I mostly met artists and I wanted to be just like them.

My parents had told me my whole life I had no talent so I had never tried to draw but the people online had told me if I worked hard I could be good at it. So I did.
They also encouraged me to study with my access to the library and I was able to get a decent score on the ACT. Get into college. And escape the life that was planned for me.

I'm now disowned by my family, but Im free, I've become a professional designer for a children's publishing company. Have my own house, and car. I'm learning programming. And I'm also starting to work on some concepts for a comic :grin:

<3

Dannng that sounds intense, and I'm sorry to hear about that. Good opportunity or no, needing therapy after a learning experience is...A LOT. It is good to see that you have taken those experiences though and turned them into something you wanted to make.

That's pretty cool that you've been able to try your story out in multiple formats though. Even if it was just experimental, or not where you wanted to go with it, it's cool that you did it.

FYI, your painterly style is lovely. It has a little bit of an impressionistic quality to it, but everything is easy to define. Your paint strokes make everything look like there's movement going on, even in stillness.

You are awesome and courageous and I applauded you for carving out your own path despite everything that was going against you. I'm super happy to hear of your triumphs and your art is lovely. The graphic coloring mixed with soft edges is a nice combo and here's all the good vibes going your way for your comic to come and continued success!!

Thank you, I'm super happy to hear of your triumphs too. I know you overcame a lot also. And I love the representation in your art. You are so right about the importance of it. I teach art at a local college sometimes and one of the projects we did was animating poetry by young Black girls from our community to amplify their voices and increase their media representation. We brought in diversity and representation advocates (who were people of color) to advise us on proper representation (since we were majority white people and didnt want to mess it up. Especially for a bunch of kids). Listening to the advocates was really eye opening and changed how most of us view media. So I just wanted to say your project is really cool, and I loved how you wanted to see it, so you literally made it happen.

Kudos to both of us and that warms my heart to hear you are out there promoting inclusion and being responsible about it, Cheers all around <3!

It doesn't bother me anymore, I know I'm not a lesbian... I just really wanted to show that I could write from a guy's perspective and I think I can... Signs of Love is from my male characters point of view.

Also, thanks for your kind words.

I did draw 2 more pages since my last comment here, and also sketched out some thumbnails for my other comic, so yea.

I'm not the most social person ever but for me a lot of the motivation comes from positive interactions with other people, which in that fandom I didn't get a lot of.

Still, I got to explain my comic to someone recently and it got me hyped up enough to start drawing for it again. It's really nice to have someone listen to me infodumping lol.

Yayyyy get it!!! <3

It totally is nice and I'm glad to hear that your feeling the motivation to get back on drawing it again :smile:

Hmm you got a point but honestly I lack the self-esteem to ask :persevere: I'm very shy too... maybe it will change one day

Hearing your story is great too! Really motivating to keep trying! You're incredible!

I totally get that. I used to be the exact same way. I got rejected a lot by galleries/boutiques for years when I tried to sell my greeting cards to them, but one finally loved how quirky it was and took them in. I've been rejected by publishers as well for my comic and I got so fed up with it that I just did it independently for conventions. If it weren't for someone reaching out to the local comic book store to see if they had my series, I would have them in 0 stores right now.
Always feel not good enough. In the past few years, I learned that I'm far too harsh on myself.

When the time is right for you to take the plunge, just remember that rejection just means "you might not be a good fit there, but you can be a good fit somewhere else". :blush:

That's a quote to keep close to heart <3.

1 year later

The journey continues! Wonder if there are any others that want to add their stories?!

Your journey is really inspiring.


How my story Nina started, it started with a dream I had when I was in 9th grade. A girl with blonde hair smiled at me, I woke up that morning wondering who that person was, the weird thing was that was the first time I dreamed about a 2D girl. So I drew her and though she wasn't as attractive, even in my dream, something about her caught my interest throughout all of my 4 years in high school. Before 12th grade I knew I wanted to make a comic since so many people were suddenly interested in webcomics but I never really liked any of the stories I wrote,

After I dropped out of high school I shuffled through my old drawings and saw this blonde haired character in my folders, then I remembered the dream I had and so I redrew her and immediately I fell in love with her new design. So simple yet so interesting, I knew immediately that she was the perfect character to make a story about thus I named her Nina. At the time I had recently broke up with an ex that I dated 5 years prior. 2019 was the lowest point in my life, I almost wanted to you know, commit not alive. If anything Nina gave me a reason to live, she's everything I am and everything I am not at the same time. Although my character was named the issue I had for a long time, was the motivation to making the story happen.

I grew up being really close to my mother, she trusted me. Every now and again I would remember my mother telling me how painful it was to lose her mother. The emotions that comes out of my mother's mouth makes me feel like I was going to experience the same thing with her. I never got to see my grandmother's funeral and sometimes I feel like it's better that way, I didn't want to imagine myself in her shoes. My grandmother has type 2 diabetes and my mother is already experiencing what she's going through, I know that one day I'll experience it too. My grandmother died a slow and painful death and even though I have never seen her before I did have a dream about it. It felt real and it still haunts me till this day.

Being an adult I started having issue being myself, or at least I feel like I wasn't myself anymore when I'm with my mother. Plus, she told me to leave her house if I didn't get a job, she was right but ADHD never give me a break so I decided either I'll be homeless or commit suicide. Though there were times I wanted to jump off a bridge I was able to find someone who wanted to help me, I'm now living with them. It's not something I'm happy about but I try not to guilt trip myself whenever I think about my mother.

So yeah, that event was the turning point in my life so I started writing Nina using the story as my way of kind of venting about myself. I still haven't gotten a therapist/psychiatrist to diagnosis my ADHD but I hope it doesn't interfere with my comic since it is a 20 years long project I'm making.

And no, my story is not focused on mental disorders, it's just a story.

As of right now, I just want to enjoy writing my stories and not think about numbers since I want to just get this project done before I crumble like every other human being before me. In a way, suicide isn't on my to-do list anymore, too busy to think about that.

At times it feels like that person in my dream was a metaphor for my future. The epitome of "crafting your own future." I crafted more than just a future, I crafted me my present.

Also, I sincerely apologize if this feels like trauma dumping. Hardships comes with hard pills to swallow.