Thank you, I'm super happy to hear of your triumphs too. I know you overcame a lot also. And I love the representation in your art. You are so right about the importance of it. I teach art at a local college sometimes and one of the projects we did was animating poetry by young Black girls from our community to amplify their voices and increase their media representation. We brought in diversity and representation advocates (who were people of color) to advise us on proper representation (since we were majority white people and didnt want to mess it up. Especially for a bunch of kids). Listening to the advocates was really eye opening and changed how most of us view media. So I just wanted to say your project is really cool, and I loved how you wanted to see it, so you literally made it happen.
I did draw 2 more pages since my last comment here, and also sketched out some thumbnails for my other comic, so yea.
I'm not the most social person ever but for me a lot of the motivation comes from positive interactions with other people, which in that fandom I didn't get a lot of.
Still, I got to explain my comic to someone recently and it got me hyped up enough to start drawing for it again. It's really nice to have someone listen to me infodumping lol.
I totally get that. I used to be the exact same way. I got rejected a lot by galleries/boutiques for years when I tried to sell my greeting cards to them, but one finally loved how quirky it was and took them in. I've been rejected by publishers as well for my comic and I got so fed up with it that I just did it independently for conventions. If it weren't for someone reaching out to the local comic book store to see if they had my series, I would have them in 0 stores right now.
Always feel not good enough. In the past few years, I learned that I'm far too harsh on myself.
When the time is right for you to take the plunge, just remember that rejection just means "you might not be a good fit there, but you can be a good fit somewhere else".
Your journey is really inspiring.
How my story Nina started, it started with a dream I had when I was in 9th grade. A girl with blonde hair smiled at me, I woke up that morning wondering who that person was, the weird thing was that was the first time I dreamed about a 2D girl. So I drew her and though she wasn't as attractive, even in my dream, something about her caught my interest throughout all of my 4 years in high school. Before 12th grade I knew I wanted to make a comic since so many people were suddenly interested in webcomics but I never really liked any of the stories I wrote,
After I dropped out of high school I shuffled through my old drawings and saw this blonde haired character in my folders, then I remembered the dream I had and so I redrew her and immediately I fell in love with her new design. So simple yet so interesting, I knew immediately that she was the perfect character to make a story about thus I named her Nina. At the time I had recently broke up with an ex that I dated 5 years prior. 2019 was the lowest point in my life, I almost wanted to you know, commit not alive. If anything Nina gave me a reason to live, she's everything I am and everything I am not at the same time. Although my character was named the issue I had for a long time, was the motivation to making the story happen.
I grew up being really close to my mother, she trusted me. Every now and again I would remember my mother telling me how painful it was to lose her mother. The emotions that comes out of my mother's mouth makes me feel like I was going to experience the same thing with her. I never got to see my grandmother's funeral and sometimes I feel like it's better that way, I didn't want to imagine myself in her shoes. My grandmother has type 2 diabetes and my mother is already experiencing what she's going through, I know that one day I'll experience it too. My grandmother died a slow and painful death and even though I have never seen her before I did have a dream about it. It felt real and it still haunts me till this day.
Being an adult I started having issue being myself, or at least I feel like I wasn't myself anymore when I'm with my mother. Plus, she told me to leave her house if I didn't get a job, she was right but ADHD never give me a break so I decided either I'll be homeless or commit suicide. Though there were times I wanted to jump off a bridge I was able to find someone who wanted to help me, I'm now living with them. It's not something I'm happy about but I try not to guilt trip myself whenever I think about my mother.
So yeah, that event was the turning point in my life so I started writing Nina using the story as my way of kind of venting about myself. I still haven't gotten a therapist/psychiatrist to diagnosis my ADHD but I hope it doesn't interfere with my comic since it is a 20 years long project I'm making.
And no, my story is not focused on mental disorders, it's just a story.
As of right now, I just want to enjoy writing my stories and not think about numbers since I want to just get this project done before I crumble like every other human being before me. In a way, suicide isn't on my to-do list anymore, too busy to think about that.
At times it feels like that person in my dream was a metaphor for my future. The epitome of "crafting your own future." I crafted more than just a future, I crafted me my present.
Also, I sincerely apologize if this feels like trauma dumping. Hardships comes with hard pills to swallow.
And that they definitely do
Thanks for sharing your truth. I know that's not always the easiest thing to find and face or even talk about being how vulnerable it makes us, but there is courage in being able to share it.
You've had a journey with Nina and I'm glad you are at a point where you are able to tell her story now
Unlike you all, I don't really have a cool origin story or anything. It's pretty meh tbh, but I felt like sharing it. I had been reading a lot of those villainess isekai manhwas on tapas and there is often this trope where the main characters get into a contractual marriage/ engagement and one of them would say something like, 'I wouldn't meddle if you have an affair, I would even accept an illegitimate child, just keep the agreement'. Although they said this, the leads will most definitely fall in love and that statement won't even matter. So the idea popped in my head that what if the leads actually did fall in love outside their marriage and even had kids, would they even be able to develop romantic feelings for each other despite their past affairs? Mulling it over, a coherent storyline started forming and I decided to pen it down.
I have finished a bunch of the story, but I wanna add a bit more buffer before I release it. Also, woah this thread is so old.
I am a big fan of Final Fantasy 6 and 7. I genuinely think they are two of the greatest realisations of humankind.
I have been waiting for 25+ years for someone to produce something with the same vibe. Turns out it hasn't happened so I decided to do it...
My stories (there are several) take place in your typical fantasy world but with two additional features. Magical creatures (some sort of gods - Espers if you know FF) are present as well as a new technology. This new technology consists of Runestones that can be engraved and placed into devices/jewels that serve as interface. Essentially it is a metaphore for smartphones adapted to a fantasy world. I have never had a smartphone and don't like the way they have change the world so I want to explore this in my work.
I can't draw so I have had to find ways to produce visuals that don't require drawing. My stories use two styles. I like them both. The one with the emoji is more dynamic than the other which allows me to better display emotions. The one using pixel art is easies to sell if you see what I mean. I write everything in easy Japanese since my work is targeted to Japanese learners.
My work being very atypical and in a foreign language there are not a lot of people I know with whom I can share it and that's the tough part. My friends and relative do not understand the text, it's not really a comic book so I can't really share it as such and the Japanese learning community has mixed feelings about it.
Dust off the cobb webs, Oldie but Goodie boo
Ahhh git outta here truck-kun, everyone's journey is personal and unique to them and that's what matters :3. I love a good against-the-grain idea that sticks and wanting to explore the complexities of personal relationships and obligations and how they overlap in a more it-is-what - is kind of way is fascinating since romance tends stories tend to focus on the new explosive magnetism of attraction and feels over the involved who looked elsewhere while bound and later on turned back to quirk an eyebrow.
Here's to getting your buffer boosted and your story posted!!
Ok this is really freaking baller and you have done a lot to adapt a game out of your passion and want to recreate an era of gaming that means so much to so many
I love how you don't let artistic skill stop you from making this happen and being that it's a callback to ye old gaming days of old, it's all in the pixels haha!
I enjoy your workaround for cellular devices hahah. It's always great to see fantasy adaptations of modern devices XD.
So this is a game that helps folks learn Japanese too? The combo of education and gaming has always been one of my favorite tools for getting folks to learn new things!
Gawd I know all about making niche shiz that has a hidden, skewed, or hard-to-target demographic :V But we can't help what we are passionate about