Well, many things actually. Troubles with university, idk how to solve them. Due to gas prices, I can't afford to drive a car since this year.
Overall bored to live here, apart from drinking, there is absolutely nothing to do here. But I don't have money to move to the big city, I'll have them only when I'll finish my education, but there is troubles. And anyway in the big city I couldn't make a career in government jobs, because of ethnic things but I don't want to work in private sphere, because of my beliefs. But I don't want to move to the other region, Moscow or Leningrad.
Still struggling with socialization, but far more less than it was before, I'm almost a socialized person already.
That is what bothering me IRL. And about art things, probably I'm fine, even see a progress in my art, only thing that is I probably lost sense why I'm making it in public and I don't know what to do with that. Also, I'm afraid that after the military service I wouldn't want to do it, Army can change people, I saw it.
And also I don't want to waste whole year there (and I will, 80% that it would be that, nowdays it's hard to be placed in the decent part of the army while being conscript, not even saying about combat positons), but it's necessary thing for my career.
And why I wrote all this, probably just tired