I'm kind of in it right now? As much as I love writing this comic, I really think I've been working on it for too long. I am sorta fatigued from re-exploring the same story from the best angles possible on and off for nearly two years now. It was bound to happen, but I just gotta see it through lol I know it's not gonna be done by this year, and tbh I doubt it might be done by next year too. And that's.. Kinda the point. I know if I drop this now, I'm never gonna ever finish it.
Lately I've been relying on spontaneously choosing to write, rather than setting time aside, like "aight maybe I can manage to write up a few panels". That compared to the chapters I could write in a few days back then. I feel like I dropped in productivity, sure, but I also gained a lot of confidence in my writing ability. Enough that it feels like it's going to be a permanent change in quality for later stories I may end up writing. So it's like.. Ehhhh, just put up with it for now.
Similar situation with music as well btw although there's a secondary reason driving my lack of motivation in it lol working off a free trial version of FL Studio isn't fun anymore! Making bite sized songs is cool, but I can't save them as projects.. so this means whenever I get down to it, I gotta leave my computer on for days at a time while killing the available ram so technically I'm on a time limit, and sometimes it's stressful to do anything bc there's also the issue of plugins cutting out in the middle of the rendering process and I certainly don't wanna pirate the software either bc I have a feeling that's what killed my laptop in the first place, so now I'm saving up money as much as I can despite being in the middle of a pandemic, and honestly all of my music gear could use some major upgrading bc it's all kinda old and outdated, but either way I wanna purchase the damn program and be legitimately safe about pursuing music for making weird metal fusions and OST styled stuff for my own creative outlets, isthatsomuchtoaskfor- I just.. I don't know how I ever managed to be in the mood to make any music recently with all that going off in my head tbh let alone a six-minute song from scratch a few months ago