I think up stuff and write. Don't really have to go through anything when I'm making things up.
Written more than a 100 stories since 1991. Mostly ghost written for clients, and published over 25 under a few pen names.
I read up on a whole lot of subjects, and that makes me think up stuff all the time.
Of course that I will read all of that! Man, what a journey. But, I couldn't be more proud reading your words, I can see just from that the progress you must have been through. I've had similar struggles myself, besides mental health issues and financial support, a lot of life complexity. But, today, I'm at the best place I could have ever had, since I'm living my dream with the person I cared about the most.I really wish you well, treat yourself with kindness and take your time to figure out your mental struggles. I will tell from experience, thoughts can never go away, but how you deal with them can change for the better. Wish you and your comic all the best! You'll figure it out!
How long have you been working as a writer? My dream job is being an author, and I had my thoughts on what is the best way to do so. For sure one day, the novel will become a book but for now I've chosen the online platform as my starting point. Would like to hear a little if you mind share about your road 
oh I am so glad someone else started also their story so long ago. I started mine 2010 XD so yeah it went through a lot of editing until I got to this point now today. But ya my ride was similar, family issues, depression, no motivation etc. so yeah I can relate. But hey now we are here and we dip our foot into the water and get our stories out there =D
Definitely! I'm still learning how to write better but I'm sure even the most famous authors will say the same. I'm here for a long journey and hopefully a good one! Wish you luck out there too!
I have similar issues too although I haven't really worked on my current story for too long, probably only about a couple years. I started writing stories when I was in middle school, they're crap stories but I've always loved writing. Writing is the only thing that keeps me sane throughout my teens to adulthood. I've never tried publishing a novel before but I do want to publish a novel one day.
I love books but I almost never have the energy to read them. I've been trying to train myself to read but I don't know, I think it's the way my brain works. It's a lot harder for me to read novels than comics. Even then it's hard for me to read comics too, so I guess it's a me issue most of the time. But when I do get into a good story regardless if it's comics or novels, I would not want to stop reading it until I finish it. It's normal for people but it's actually crazy for me cause then I have to find something that gives me the same/similar experience.
It will be interesting for me to see how my story makes you feel, I've posted it on the first comment, I say this because I was always like you - I've always loved to watch TV movies and series, less to read. I've felt reading is slower and less impactful, but when I truly revealed the potential of writing through my own experience, it made me change upside down and now I think that a book can be as much impactful as a movie and even more. It's all up to the writer. (Although I would've loved to be able to have a soundtrack to certain parts of it, in the future I do hope to make it a series and do it like I always dreamed of). Thanks for sharing!
I've been writing stories since 1991. And professionally from 2006 , as a freelance writer and illustrator for contractual projects. Also been writing and drawing my own stuff on the side all the while.
thankies, wish ya luck too! I am also still trying to find my perfect style atm, but that comes just with practice and trial and error I guess. Its tough as there are some set rules what to do and what not to do but every rule is also then again just a guideline and if you can make things work what maybe doesn't apply to the norm then this is also a win. So play around I guess until you find the best style for you, thats what I do XD or trying to do lol
Quite a lot, this will be long, I'm so sorry, I talk a lot xD What today is my comic started in the end of 2008 as a death note fanfic when I was 12/13. I was already a depressed kid, I just didn't know about it. And writing was my refugee. Writing and drawing was all I had. I started this fanfic after my best friend at the time showed me what BL was and I was mesmerized, I was like "what magnificent genre is that, why is this so good?", it was love at fisrt sight, so I had to make my own too. Right there, that girl created a monster, I never stoped creating BL afterwards xD
2009 I changed schools, my depression got way worse. I spent almost 6 months not talkings to anyone in school, you see, I have social anxiety and I got to know it only in adult life, so I spent all my timing there drawing, writing novels (my fanfic and others), and reading manga. A teacher that was kinda of a tutor of the class even pushed me to the side and asked me what was happening, why I had no friends, if it was needed to call my parents to bring me to a terapist to help me go through all this. That day I cried a lot after that talk (yeah, in class even xD). Eventually I was accepted in a group and I got friends, I'm friends to them to this day, so yay.
I don't rememeber when, I decided to transform my fanfic to an original, so I rewrote everything, recreated all the characters. At this point I was in high school already, and dealing with depression, suicide ideation, but I can't remember much of this time of my life. I remember I tended to isolate myself a lot. And made what today is my best friend online, which may be important in the future.
After school is where the chaos begins and my mental health declines. After school I stoped writing novels for good. I also stoped drawing because of depression. I was pressured to make a university that I didn't want to do, so my mental health was fucked. I kept going to uni for 4.5 years. I dissociated a lot, so I don't remember a thing about those years. Yeah, today I know I have dissociative identity disorder, what makes my recolection of things really foggy, specially traumatic events. What made me stop going to uni was a suicide atempt, that no one at home knew about (even though we all live together lol), and that best friend I talked about saved my life talking to my mom about it. So that's when I started my treatment, finally. It was 2017 already at this point. I stoped going to university altogether, but I didn't start drawing again 'til something tragic happened...
In 2018 I started working with my mom in her beauty salon. I was making my treatment with my psycologist. Things would get better. Until my father died. It was chaotic, it was really early morning and my mom called me to tell me my father had a heart atack and it was bad, and it was for me to be ready to wake up my sister, and I cried after we hang up. But after that I didn't cry anymore. Everyone, literally everyone kept telling me to be strong for my mother and my sister, cuz I'm the oldest. No one cared for me and what I felt. That day I took all the pills we had at home, in the funeral I was so out of it I don't remember a thing. After that, my dad had some money at the bank, and my mom gave me and my sister our parts. With that money, I bought an ipad. That's when I started drawing again. About 7 months after my dad's death.
I kept drawing here and there, not thinking about coming back to write novels again. My mental health was unstable, I had a couple more suicides atempts in the meanwhile. Until 2020 came. I was reading a lot of webcomic for a while now, and I finally thought: I want to make one. What I was going to talk about though? And I rememberd that story I had that I loved, that one that borned as a fanfic and acompanied me through my teens. But as it was it wouldn't work anymore, I wanted to make it more real, more personal. So I though: why not make my character have depression as I do? I can tell my experience with it. So it began. I started writing the script with the passion I had as a teen, like I never had stopped writing. And in starting it made wonders to my mental health, omg I can't even begin with it. It was awesome. But then, the end of 2020 came....
I don't really remember what happened, again, dissociation. I just remember that in january 2021 I was so bad, my mental heath was so so bad, I had a crises and my body just couldnt fuction properly. And my mother took me to my psychistrist. She made me go outpatient in a mental hospital. And I'm still to this day, yeah, almost 2 years, I'm totally unstable, my depression comes and goes so fast and so deeply and it affects my work so much, so so much... I can't work anymore, so I just make my comics nowadays. Obviously I have good days, but I barely can work on my comic sometimes, and that's my passion project. I'm like disebled for now, ultill it all goes away.
I try to use my experience with my mental health in my comic to make it real, to make it representative of how chaotic it is and stuff like that. And even though sometimes I can't even draw a single panel because of my mental health, I keep trying to work on it for the few people who reads it and believes in my story, I can't give up now, I'm working on it for 2.5 years now. If you count since the begining, I'm working on it for 14 years. I can't stop now. I went through a lot with my mind and this story is still in it, so it's worth trying to tell it.
I'm sorry for the wall of text and thank you for those who read it xD It's hard trying to remember things because of DiD but the key things I think I can.
Exactly I believe that the first thing you should care of is if you like the work, first and fore most, I write my story as it is because I like it and has passion toward it. If other people love it too and I can make a living out of it, is only a bonus. But, I wouldn't want to write something in order for others to like it if I don't believe it myself
That perseverance really left a touch on my heart. In my opinion, only a story that comes from a place that is important for you, that has effect on you, will bring the best out of you. First of all, I wish you well, mentally, physically and comic-wise. I believe that through your work, you will achieve peace. Just don't give up on the struggle. Please. Thank you for posting your story here
How did you hurt it? To torn it is pretty bad 
I imagine doing sport, maybe calisthenics/weight lifting?
I do quite a bit of lifting in my carer job so it's starting to take its toll methinks.
Can still draw at least but have to take more breaks.
Tempted to train myself to draw with my left arm 
yeah thats rly the best approach, but you will find yourself wanting reaction if you post it. Like comments or likes, people that do like it boost your motivation beyond anything lol its just rly a good feeling if you get confirmation =D but yeah definitely don't strife for that and be careful to not fall into that pit, cause it can happen.
Thank you so much. 
Indeed, I find much peace and hapiness through my comic, even though it's not perfect, I'm doing it even with my difficulties, even when I feel like it's not worth it, I keep trying to improve and make something at least readable xD and my story means a lot to me, I think that's because of what you said, that's because it comes from a place of importance. I may have made a good decision of making it about mental health, making it about personal things, I think that's why I didn't give up in the years I've been making it.
Well hahah thanks again, I don't plan on giving up so soon, I'm on a good place right now, at least for today I am. Hopefully I'll be for a good while. And hopefully my comic will be too xD
