My webcomic adventure is a series of one stupid decision after the other...
How did you start off with your comic?
Raven Wolf started off as a novel I was writing for kids, because the main characters were all animals it was suggested to me that it would translate to younger readers better as a comic than a novel. To which I decided, meh, I HATE drawing comics because I hate putting all that ****ing work into something and being told "look at the pretty pictures!!!" like did you ****ing read it? Comment on the story?? If I wanted 'oooo it looks pretty' I would have just drawn a picture instead of putting effort into a whole ****ing comic.
But you know, despite my loathing for that I decided that I guess I could try anyway, I will just not draw my best so that people will be forced to focus on other aspects of it. Then I took it a horrible step further, and thought, 'you know what, I ****ing hate colouring with every possible fiber in my body and every being of my existence. So I am going to make a full colour comic because then maybe I will learn to LOVE colouring. Ha.... ha ha ha... ha ha (I ****ing hate colouring more than ever before and I freaken hated it A LOT back before starting)
No Future I started because the schedule for inkblazers was too demanding for someone with arthritis working on a full colour comic. So I started this series, which was much quicker to draw so that I could hopefully use that to support me and I could start to casually work on Raven Wolf at a lest self destructive pace. At first I made it on an alternate account, because the art was poor because I was trying to get used to drawing quickly enough to make a page a day comic, as well as several of my readers are absolutely horrible people and if they found out I was working on another series instead of Raven Wolf I was concerned that they would possibly send me death threats (which some of them friggen did when I connected my comic to my account later)
Than Inkblazers shut down. I kept at the series so that I could continue to work on comics and feel like I was still accomplishing something in my life even if it was small, because my health was getting worse and there's no way I can work on Raven Wolf constantly anymore, but when I wasn't working on something I was thrown into the "I am a worthless sick, cripple living in constant pain that has no purpose to their life and absolutely no way of contributing anything to society. I am burden to everyone around me that can't contribute to anything in life, why do I bother continuing to live? I just cause people work and trouble, I mean they like me but they also like their pets... pets are a lot of work and can't really contribute anything but making their owners happy... I'm pretty much a pet... Is continuing to live a form of self abuse? Would it just be kinder if I jumped in front of a truck and ended it? My family could get a new pet to look after, and I wouldn't be in pain anymore." With those thoughts continuing to get darker and darker until I thought 'ok time to work on comics and trick myself into thinking I'm doing something that's productive and contributes to society in some way'
How did you come up with it's story?
Raven Wolf was an idea I couldn't get out of my head that I didn't really like but wanted the **** out my head, so I wrote it down hoping that once it was out of my head I could focus on other things. After writing it down I continued working on it and ended up really liking the concepts and ideas I had ended up with. So I worked on them more and then made a story that I really enjoyed out of them.
No Future was an incomplete script I found for a story I had scrapped, that I wrote when I was much younger, it started out fun enough, but then the mood suddenly dropped as it became reflection of my life and was filled with depression, self loathing and a record of the many horrible things that had happened to me throughout my life. Despite how dark it was I really like the concept, and decided to work with it, I combined aspects and characters from other scrapped ideas and stories of mine, and I distributed everything that was happening to the main character among several characters in the series so that it wasn't all this shit being dumped on one person type situation, also because I was older and lived through these experiences I could see 'the way out / the bright side / a way to help' none of which I could at the time of the original story's writing. I was able to turn it into a story I actually enjoy and have a lot of fun with (which I originally intended for it to be but lost once I starting going down that spiral of depression that just made me focus on negativity)
Why did you come to tapastic to share it?
After inkblazers shut down I came to this one so that I could use the support program... HA, Jokes on me right??? **** me I'm not even kidding that's seriously it =_=... my comics are not formatted for this site so other than that I have no benefits to being here over any other websites. and don't give me the ****ing patreon lecture, I know about it and use it BUT patreon has not been letting me take my money out of it for months now, it kind of makes it not so helpful when it's doing that. Not to mention it absolutely does not work for what I need it to do in my comicking situation
Why do you want to share your comic with others?
Posting Raven Wolf online was more an incentive to push me into stop constantly doing re-dos / quitting projects and actually gain some kind of control of schedule on my comic work. I didn't go too much out of my way to advertise it because getting readers was not my original focus, MAKING it without backtracking was. I actually did not expect to get as many readers and fans as I ended up with.
No Future was yeah, some kind of attempt to make the inkblazers demand and work environment easier on me, now it's more a personal project that I marketed less than I did Raven Wolf and again, did not expect to get as many readers and fans as I did.
Also, despite my dislike for drawing and colouring, I enjoy storytelling... I REALLY enjoy storytelling. I enjoy it so much I endure doing things I absolutely hate to do it. Yeah... that's how much I enjoy telling stories.