Talking to a literal demon. I don't mean this figuratively referring to a nasty person as a demon. I mean literal. As in fallen angel cast out from heaven.
No I wasn't on drugs... No I didn't have any "Christian upbringing" influencing me. At that time, I had complete rejection of the Bible and viewed it as a bunch of fairy tales that only stupid ignorant people believe to be real... and it's all a control mechanism invented by the elite to enslave humanity...
And it scarred me for the rest of my life. I've never been the same. Reason why I hold beliefs that are considered to be fringe of the fringe in Christianity.
My views are rejected by both ends of the spectrum... On one hand it's by lovey-dovey Christian groups who think God loves you and would let you in to heaven even if you're an unrepentant sinner... And on the other it's the extremely legalistic hardcore side that makes God look like Kim Jong Un... Where everything is banned because God said so and don't ask questions or it's hellfire!
Perhaps I'm mentally ill?
Um... Without God or my current beliefs, I won't even be able to function in society. Remove God from the equation, this world is nothing but a mean hateful place... Where men are out to size you up and bully you physically if they see you weak... And where women are nothing but manipulators of emotion who are out to file false sexual harrasment charges...
No hope at all... I'd just go curl up and shoot myself in the head to end my misery. Now that's insane. What living thing kills itself? Even an animal has basic life preservation instinct... Meanwhile taking one's life can be perfectly logically justifiable without the existence of God and everything spiritual...
/End rant