I've been trying for a long time to find a passion. Something I can do that will make money and that I will enjoy. Something that would support my pastime writing comics. But.... writing this comic... over time it's kind of enforced the realization that... this is what I love to do. My favorite thing about my comic is that it reminded me I love to make comics.
I've gotta hand it to developing character relationships. The comic is a horror/fantasy that takes place in what is essentially a parallel universe to our own. The main character of my comic is a 15-year-old foster kid. She's an optimist and tries not to let her lack of a typical family arrangement get in the way of things. Sparing you a whole novel's worth of backstory and explanation, this girl essentially gets adopted by a reaper (technically only half-reaper, but that's irrelivant. Though it's worth mentioning he abuses his powers to save children). The reaper himself had a less than ideal upbringing as a kid, not to mention he's unable to have biological offspring of his own, and seeing him connect with this girl is pretty tender and makes me feel really good when drawing. I love drawing the slow progression of their relationship. Watching them go from confused and unsure, like complete strangers, to essentially what is just a very wholesome child/guardian relationship.
I also like the complexity of some of the other relationships in the comic. Such as the main antagonist falling in love with one of the main protagonists. Drawing out her emotions and thought processes is an interesting experience for me. Watching two halves of her fighting over whether to kill or spare the protagonist is just....well, again, interesting.
Artistically, I like that my comic is painstakingly drawn in ball-point pen. The colors are digital, but the lines themselves are all hand drawn in ink. The original comic pages were completely digital, but I didn't feel like they were a good representation of my true art style. So I actually pushed back the comic's official release date to early 2020 just so I could redraw every page in pen. It is a pain but I'm proud of myself for prioritizing my happiness with the comic over just getting it out on a certain date. And I do like the look of the handrawn style significantly better. It gives it a bit of dirty, grittiness that I think fits the aesthetic better than clean vector lines.
I like what my novel has meant to people. It handles some very dark themes on mental health issues, and I am glad that people can recognise traits of themselves in it and perhaps find some understanding. Thus far quite a few people have commented on how it has resonated with them, or even helped them, which I am really glad for.
Honestly? I really think my writing is super solid, even if my art is still somewhat lacking. Especially the dialouge. I think the character interactions and talks are the best part of my comic. I do struggle with introducing the world and pacing everything out, but the dialouge always brings me around to being proud of my work again. Especially the dialouge in the last chapter (that chapter was mostly talk anyways as a "silence before the storm" thing"), as it payed of things I had long been building up (character backstory, a reality check for my protagonist, the return of my favourite character that had been missing fro the comic for around three years :D).
I am also pretty proud of certain backgrounds and covers. I definitely don't nail it all of the time and many of my pages are rushed. But If I look at a page like this.... my favourite things just is how much I was able to learn through this monstrosity.

Definitely my two main character's child. He's such a smol bean and is really innocent because he's just trying to help his parents without wanting to cause any disruption to anyone. He's also in the dark and "adult" things, but then knows everything about some things that one of the main character's is hiding from the other. He also has my favorite characteristics from the two main characters and it's just so beautiful, I love my smol babie
I'm a sappy romantic at heart so I love my side plot of HP's and Mr. Graves budding relationship. They're the light at the end each other's tunnel and mine too. If a reanimated corpse and a slightly closeted gay transgender man can find love during the horror of 1920's Arkham then there can be hope for the rest of us freaks. There's nothing better than making these to awkward boys struggle through flirting while chasing a serial killer.
the fact that ive improved like crazy since i started the comic, its such a learning experience for artist that just so much fun to do. from creating a concept to actually seeing it come to life
here is a few examples of what i meant (im redrawing the first couple of pages on my comic but their not colored yet)
also me love my main boy chirp, his life was just so interesting to design from a simple scenario to all the plot twists, hell hes an orphan living with 7 sisters and 1 brother (and he hismelf is the youngest of them all!) under the safety of a kingdom!
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