WARNING : SPOILERS AHEAD (For those who have not yet read this beauty)
Okay, so like the whole second half of the original (shironeki beginnings and on) was just enormously heartbreaking, and it really just built upon itself and built upon itself until the last chapter where I was honest to god convinced Kaneks was done for, mind and body. And then he just comes back, no prob, but he's missing all of his memories, even those of his mother and the loss just.
Goddammit, he's just lost so much. And it was all because he just wanted a bookstore date, and he became a straight up monster from urban legends, plenty of folks seem to want to kill him at first glance, and he's isolated from even Hide, his only long standing friend. His life is threatened time upon time, and it appears as if he will never make it in this new and largely unnatural society he's been forcibly stashed in. When he finally adjusts to that level of shit, he up and gets kidnapped by Shark Face and tortured out of his mind. He comes back just slightly off, and really not what he used to be. And then after some more shit, he nearly dies again and that triggers his complete loss of sanity, and he actually becomes what he used to fear so much. All connection to his humanity is cut and his last chance at happiness with it. Or so it seemed, until he comes back, his slate wiped completely clean. But even then it's not as good as it seems, and his old life is bursting into the new one he's haltingly made for himself. He's cracking at the seams again, so clean slate shmean shmate. All his old ghoul friends are busy with their lives, except Tsuki who has basically become a giant ball of depression for lack of Kaneks, and he's missed out on all of them and all of his chances at happiness among them.
And top it all off, there's √A which constantly reminds me at every twist and turn what he could have been, what he will be, and I just. I'm invested, goddammit! I care for him, and everything he has become is not good for anyone. I'm legit worried Ishida will finally let the depression get to Kaneks and make the boy all sorts of suicidal. He's gone through so, so much and it looks like it'll only get worse from here on out. Which is not at all, not in the slightest bit, okay. Nothing is okay, and I'm not okay.