Eh? At what point? I consider quitting at every inconveniences happened.
I have 3000 views, only 115 subs, and even less than 10 people who actually like and/or comment it. It has been there for over 6 months, has been staff featured, has been on trending, has been on popular.
And it has god-awful stats
Do you know the main reason when an exposed thing don't get popular or widely appraised? People hate it
People hate my work, so bad. Or at least these give me tge impression that people hate my work so bad that less than 1% people who look at it will sub.
The worst thing is they don't tell me why, they only walk away and let me figure out in silence. While I'm fully aware I don't speak English, I'm new at this, and currently I don't edit my writing (I don't think I can do that alone), there must be something repulsive and revolting in my work people don't tell that make them hate it.
Second, it's just my personality. I've been doubting myself if what I do is just a waste and I should have quitted before I'm getting too invested in it? There is no chance for me even if Thanos erased half of the universe. I'm bad, I'm stupid, I should have died long ago.
Those are perfect reasons to quit, right? People dislike my work, and I'm unsure about it
The reason I don't quit is there are still readers worth writing for, and there are still interactions. I made friends here and my friends are here. This is the main reason I'm still here. Who are writers if nobody read your works?
Plus the reason I don't quit yet is I just want to see how far I can reach now. I've always been a quitter, it's really easy to incite doubt and make me stop. Here, my work is totally hopeless and I just want to see how long it will take to quit.
When I have no one here, and I have no reason to push myself, that's when I'll quit.
I still yearn for wider audience so it won't be an echo chamber and I can see multiple perspective and interpretation of my work, though. And finally can have faith on myself.
I hope you don't have to go through intense doubt like mine but it's very hard to quit when there are still people genuinely enjoying your work, and you feel happy with their existence