I'd like to share some thoughts I had before and see other people's opinions. I was doing my stuff and I started to think about the Big Bang and the usual representations of it when I start questioning myself what was before, be it an older universe that died, complete blackness or both. Following the first line of thought, I began to imagine these universes and questioning what started the chain, what started reality itself and what was before, if there was something. Did reality had always existed or had it been a total nothingness that we can't even imagine, a lack of anything?. Then I think about a deity and the God particle, Higgs boson, which creates new matter, and I ask myself "What created the God particle? What created God? When did the atoms and the particles that conform them appear?
Of course, we still don't have the knowledge and technology to answer these questions, but since recently I stumbled upon some Buddhist philosophy, I understand that we can live without knowing the truth behind them, even if they end up priving to be unanswerable.