Yeah, I feel ya, I mean, I think it is important to have a balance between views a subs, a healthy ratio is important to have a creator motivated to continue crafting.
I don't do it for the subs, I create for myself, all of that it's true, but the extrinsic motivators are also important, so again, balance is the key.
It is worse when one updates and one gets 5 unsubs (dies)........ No option here, gotta keep pushin' if u really want it, constantly review your craft, where can I find flaws, where (and how) can I grow to attract more readers while being faithful to what I want to do. Cos doing something to get the love of others, I don't think that's the road to walk.
Good luck, cheers. Oo.oO