i burnt my tongue!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why was my tea THAT HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it was green tea! i think its bc i let the kettle go to full boil, and didnt add any cold bc it was a p shallow mug :////
Full boil? Bloody hell that's hot...
Have you tried putting coffee into green tea?
I mean, if Starbucks can make you pay a lot for something like that, then you could do it at home, right?
I AM IN-BETWEEN JOBS AND MY RENT HAS BEEN RAISED BECAUSE IDK MY DAD WAS IN A BAD MOOD
luckily tho I have been contacted back by someone......... although the past two interviews didn't give me anythingggggggggggg
I'm just gonna pray this office takes me on lol
Wow nearly 2k comments is a lot to read! XD i missed out on so much... i miss out on everything
All my shit started in 2016 and life has just been one giant FU to me since.
Left my cozy home in FL to help my grandparents who were in bad health in July 2016. In september my gramma had cardiac arrest and died for 8 minutes, somehow she was saved but spent 2 months in hospital. I helped grampa with bills, working 2 jobs, helped with home care when she came home. Worked 90hours a week until June. I had just started uploading to Tapas right around that.
Then my family forces me on vacation, a month in Wyoming fishing. Actually fun but once we got home, grampa called me lazy, a bum, a mooch and kicks me out not even 24hrs after being home. I move to SD with my parents because i have no savings left to get my own place
BECAUSE I USED IT TO HELP MY GRANDPARENTS.
In SD things got worse because they hate me making art and bashed me constantly. I worked 2pm to midnight then did commissions until 3 or 4 am (10am to midnight on weekends and got mad if I wasnt up at 7am. In December they gave me an eviction notice ON CHRISTMAS. In a card.
By now it had been 6 months since i updated my comic from working 2 jobs to try to save up and get a half decent car that would not die and being a maid for my parents. I move into my sisters home. I pay 500$ a month for a 6x6ft room in the basement and work a night shift (better money). So during the day her 4 kids wake me up all the time. I moved in in December 16, kicks me out in march 17 because i keep asking her kids to stop being so noisy (they are like ages 8 to 12, they are capable).
Got a car, but no home. So back to moms house. Fighting constantly. Work 530am to 4pm. Tired when i get home. My job sucks 10+ hours straight. No breaks. No sitting, only standing. No lunch breaks. (Sd law does not require breaks by law). I am on call 24-7 as an assistant manager so i NEVER get days off. I finally save enough for a small house (in october 17) with horrid insulation, no fridge, no bathroom sink but i can afford it. This is south dakota. It has been below 10F for DAYS. We finally went above 0 yesterday. My house is cold as hell.
I still work 90hrs a week, i have no internet (except my phone). No tV, i dont even have a monitor or dish. I have zero friends and after work i am so fucking tired i just have zero energy to draw. I updated my comic so irregularly because of life that I know people have zero interest. It grew until about 300 subs, then stopped. Hasnt grown since my posts became irregular. It pisses me off because I try and it fails anyway.
Webtoons acted the same, i stopped posting regularly, my subs stall or decline. I want to delete everything and start over.... but i have no way to keep arting right now and it kills me because i feel like a waste of space online and offline.
Rant over sorry.
I'm 99.9% certain that WEBTOONS is playing games with bots and stats. There was a sudden slowdown in an instant about 2 weeks back. 30-50% of traffic just vanished like POOF!
I would expect that to gradually diminish, but it went within a day and stayed there since.
I'm also suspect of some of their stats on the popular comics, because it makes little sense how quite a few of those comics have such high subscriber rates and yet low "likes" compared to subscribers and views. The "likes" are the tell-tale sign, I believe. Most regular comics make about 5% likes/views-subs. Some of the immensely popular (subscribed) have maybe 1% "likes" per issue.... odd for something so popular.
Anyone else notice this phenomena?
Some of those super-pop comics also get relatively little comments as well. I think they pad the system on certain comics, in order to promote and pay them--to funnel encouraging money to them and send a signal to hopeful creators.
It's also possible they cut their bots recently in order to facilitate Google ads coming along for revenue in the next month/s. Bots are a good way to puff up the stats on a site and make it look like a leader when it's average. I wanna see the web ratings on Webtoons later this month and see if their overall visitors and views dropped way off in the end of January into February (40million down to 20 millions perhaps).
wh.. no. is that nice? i only have my green tea w water and nowt else. do they use matcha or like, normal green tea? (i still have no idea what matcha is)
god why do I have to be poor? TwT
damn you mexico and your stupid no student immigrants may work laws :'C
this thing.
beautiful.
i don't know about you guys in the western hemisphere, but down in the east, this is worth dying for.
recipe: just make matcha latte (read: pour milk in green tea), then stir in espresso (read: double brewed 3-in-1 coffee).
yeah. that's it.
Earlier today I had to call a vet appointment for my cat because he might have some problems with his teeth. It's been a long and tiring day, so I decided to take a nice little nap. However when I woke up I found that someone had peed in the cat carrier.
Coincidence? I think not!
(Luckily the appointment's not until Monday, so I have time to clean it up properly.)
I wish I could write continuously instead of on my breaks... but writing and keeping up with uni feels impossible.
i really want to try out speedpainting videos but i can't for the life of me understand how to fix obs for recording and i've yet to figure out anything save for layout 
just when i thought i'd found a way to provide some kind of content while i try to get myself into making comics again
i'm also upset at myself as a sort of artist meetup thing is apparently starting up at my local library but i never go nor do i have much reason to not to o<-<
Urg, I really don't want to bitch about this, but... Can't someone switch jobs with me?
I'm tired of this BS now.
Our boss is sick (like really sick, and should probably be in a hospital but they don't have a substitute so she needs to do all the work herself) and NOT ONLY that, our schedule sucks.
They've threatened me to go down in time because I say I'm unable to work 4 hours in 2 hours worth of time. It's impossible.
Got a call yesterday from them, saying that I may not be able to work full time. Uhm. Excuse you?
You're the one who told me I could take this other place at a later time which APPARENTLY I couldn't.
Ofc I get stressed out.
I've tried coming up with solutions to our schedule but whenever I try to suggest something it's not good at all. So when they told me to "open my mouth" and express myself I felt so... Miserable. I mean. wtf?
And today they told me that I got home nearly 2 hours earlier than I should've had and I'm just... No? I didn't?
But there's no point in arguing, I'm too effing tired for this now.
I've been in constant anxiety and stomach ache for nearly 2 weeks now due to this "amazing" schedule that doesn't work.
I think that if they hadn't been so sick, this wouldn't have happened at all.
I just urghh... And I feel so bad about ranting about it when I do have a job (which is really hard to get these days) but I'm so tired of all of this now. I just want to do something that's not scrubbing gd toilets every day. I'm sick of it and I'm sick of people not respecting me because of my work.
I almost never tell people what I work with, because it's either "how awful it must be" or "people like you don't have any education anyway so what can you do?"
and I'm just... Please don't talk.
I'm sorry, I just needed to vent. At the moment, everything I do feels like it's wrong and nothing I do is right. I just.. Want to go back to how my old work was, because I had so much fun with it. I felt like I could grow as a person and right now I feel so stuck with myself.
I've tried looking for other jobs, but you either need a relevant education for said job, having worked with it before or being good with numbers. None of which I have unfortunately so I'm stuck with cleaning toilets. Fun.
(and no, I can't afford education, even tho we have it free here. Because CSN, the loan provider, are butts and I've pretty much messed up all my chances of ever being able to do anything else, thanks 18yo me.)
I just... I have no idea what to do, I can't live on my art (yet) and I don't want to go to work on Monday.
One part of me wants to call myself in sick, but we're low on personnel so no one can subsitute for me while I'm gone and I want to prove to my boss that I can do this.
But yeah, dark thoughts have been pretty much increasing (I'm on meds, don't worry! It's just... they don't seem to help at the moment but I can manage that) and I just want to get away from life I guess?
Gosh, I'm so sorry that this got so long!! D:
I wanna kill someone right now.............
Recently I've been given the news that I'm being forcibly ejected from my family's house, and as a result I'm trying to get commissions to raise extra funds for this sudden change. (I only have one month)
I've been pushing my commission info as well as scouring for work in the DA forums like a coked up ferret.
And do you know what I get? I get someone replying to me in a random forum thread saying "I love everything you do and follow your stuff! draw my OC for free :^)"
Okay then. I'll just drop all the things I'm doing that are necessary to making money for my survival and give some complete stranger some art that they'll give me nothing for. On top of that, their only reference image is a goddamn minecraft skin. How in the hell am I meant to draw that? I don't even draw minecraft stuff! It's completely insane.
It feels like I'm having my wounds salted. I'm facing the incoming possibility of poverty and it's scaring me a lot, and I'm trying my hardest to make money and yet I get nothing but the same old "give me free art because I like you :^)" crap.
It made me feel totally deflated. It feels like this person is just pretending to care about my work or me as a person.
The fact that they most likely know about your situation but have the gall to ask that tells me they're selfish.
They don't deserve your work and people like that don't understand that you're not obligated to give them art.
I hope you rejected them and I hope it was harsh. I can't stand people like that. Like, if you see someone is making commissions, don't even respond if you can't pay. That's like me going into a store and taking things and going "oh, I don't wanna pay for this, so can I just have it for free?"