Probably the Poison stuff, because I mainly did it with my school account and not realising it. Till I got the e-mail form the dean
Also it took me an awful lot of time to find the right poison
And I will never forget the hours it took me to get all the correct names from the right century, things I should know but also don't know
My FBI agent probably sits in front of his PC and just thinks "How did this girl get into a good University?" and shakes his head
Historical-Fantasy BL
Only few of these have appeared in the series, and in the series I consider my portrayal is tame as my series is light-hearted. Still, I give a bit warning and I put it under spoiler.
Spoiler
Topics: miscarriage, birth defects, ways to self-harm, necrophilia, and grooming.
What would people think of me looking at pictures of stillborn babies and miscarried fetuses? Normal people look for images of healthy and alive babies, right? What will people think of me looking at those? For the upcoming chapter I am looking for a syndrome because it will be vaguely portrayed; for some, said syndrome might be a bit disturbing.
About the last two mentioned, no shit that I am feeling uncomfortable researching that
A lot of alcohol questions for the upcoming part two of my novel:
- How to open a wine bottle without a bottle opener (with your shoe, apparently)
- How many servings in the average bottle of wine?
- HOW MUCH WINE CAN YOU DRINK BEFORE IT STARTS TO KILL YOU????
so... yeah. Not too uncomfortable for me, but not exactly something I want on my search history, you know?
It's not uncomfy, it was just a little new and interesting for me to research different kinds of pacemakers and how exactly heart conditions and cardiac arrests work or happen, as my main character has a heart condition. But I love researching and learning new stuff for my story, so it was just super interesting.
None of this was particularly uncomfortable for me, just would look questionable in my search history:
- the fastest and easiest way to kill someone with a knife, ensuring they cannot retaliate
- what actually happens when kneecaping someone
- where to shoot someone in the leg so they can still move and won't bleed out
- the best way to describe a prostate orgasm
(One of these things is not like the others...)
mean I've been writing gore since Elementary school so none of that is particularly uncomfortable for me. and I did most of the research back in highschool.
But my story is about sexual assault straight up, since my MC is a male I needed to read about a lot of different male experiences of sexual assault how they cope with it etc cause boy brains work differently than girl brain and I have girl brain. guys act different and I thought I'd try to get that accurate.
Cause writing it based off JUST my experiences and knowledge of the topic it simply wouldn't work and frankly I don't want to write about my own life.
Also had to google how creepers usually get their victims and how they act around children etc etc. That probably put me on a list.
also a lot of firsthand kidnapping stories.
Learning that the media tries to turn the survivors of kidnappings into celebrities instead of leaving them the fuck alone made its way into my story. (ex its the 5th anniversary of the famous JANE DOE case!!! and there's like a million news articles about it, and what happened with hardly any updates on their life. I read one article that straight up doxxed a kidnapping survivor. its gross.)
FBI: looks at my search history and doesn't care but gets madder about pirated movies lmao do ur job feds
For Hallows Happenings and for a not yet started work, I’ve been having to research the Dullahan (also known as Gan Ceann). For those who have never heard of this thing, it’s super unsettling and makes the classic headless horseman seem like a cuddly teddy bear. It’s basically a headless horseman from Irish folklore that carries its rotting head while riding a black horse. It has a whip made of a human spine and can kill you by calling your name. It hasn’t shown up as of writing this post but if anyone wants to check out Hallows Happenings and watch for it:
Both of my novels are historical, so I had to look up equivalents for so many things or how things were back then
My latest story is a little more modern (still 100 years ago ) but I have to always research how segregated certain areas are and think twice before I write my characters going anywhere. But instead of focusing on where my characters can’t go, I highlight where they’re “safer” and can thrive. It can get a little heavy, but it’s important to me to not get hung up on those parts (though they’re historically important) but to show joy in those moments despite the circumstances. One of my more interesting stints of research was contraception in the 1920s
My first story deals with reincarnation so I ended up googling how long it takes for a body to decompose in the winter. Everything was customs, natural remedies, and how to build things with everyday tools.
Well, mine wasn't weird or uncomfortable but the responses to it were sure weird... I thought.
I posted here a question about how a 13 year old boy would react to something, like would he gasp or be shocked or frightened or whatever.
I made the mistake of requesting, in my topic heading, for "male perspective" on it and got a few less than nice answers from people who felt I was being ... well, I'm not quite sure what they thought I was being but they got pretty upset and felt I was being exclusionary. But... I really wanted to know how a 13 year old boy (because my character is a 13 year old boy) would feel about something. I didn't think it was that unreasonable a request.
so I ended up calling friends with boys and that gave me my answer.