(Throwaway account) So basically I'm slowly but steadily gaining a following on my comic and I'm worried about someday getting cancelled because, from the ages of about 8 to 11 I was the worst human being conceivable, I was expelled from multiple schools for many kinds of bad behaviour (I was diagnosed with autism at about 6 so that probably played a factor into why I was like that) I used to punch and kick people, I said very racist things before I even knew what they meant or understood how bad what I said was, I stabbed a teacher and student with a pencil and other stuff. and even though I'm a lot older now and I know I've changed I still look back at myself with disgust and regret for what I did, and every day I wake up hating myself sometimes to the point of feeling suicidal,
I felt like I would never not think about and it and I would hate myself forever, but I little while ago I started creating my webcomic to try and distract myself from constantly thinking about my past and hating myself, I enjoy it so much because not for money or clout, it's just because I get to entertain people and that's what I love doing because it's the opposite of what I used to do back then, instead of hurting people and making them feel bad, I just want to entertain them and hopefully make them smile.
I started doing my comic as a hobby, but I'm getting bigger now and I'm getting more fans and followers, I love it because it's what I want to do, entertain people for a bit and I get more people to entertain every day, but I'm scared that if people find out about my past and the old me, that even though I've changed and I know I'm nothing like that anymore, I'll get cancelled, it keeps me awake at night sometimes, it's the idea that my only form of happiness and escape from thinking about my past could be taken away from me by my past, I know this sounds stupid but, being cancelled is the thing that worries my the most right now. if you read this far thank you for listening to me, I really do appreciate it, I don't have any friends to speak to about stuff so I post on here.
Edit:
I've seen a lot of people in the comments saying that I just shouldn't worry about it, and I've responded a lot by denying it, that's because I always give myself the worst case scenario in order to not get my hopes up I guess, but I do realize now that I probably just shouldn't worry about it, and thank you everyone for your replies