"You're not trying." More like I can't think of anything! It's very frustrating to hear that when no progress is made.
I've been told, that starting, and not really thinking, is the way to go. Mistakes are meant to be made, yes- I understand that, but what is the point of a story that has no meaning, no message, no character? No personality?
I've thought about making a story for almost two years now. Something. Anything.
I had to erase a big ass pile of "these were my plans, what was I thinking/doing wrong" because that took up way too much space and stuff, and I don't want to be that guy.
However, the hour of writing I erased did kind of clue me in on what I was doing wrong, because apparently my hands think better than my brain do. I'll restate this better later.
Basically; a world is worthless without characters, and characters that don't interact are worthless.
...Okay, maybe that's putting it a bit bleak/harsh on myself and anyone reading this.
However, figuring out what I'm doing wrong doesn't help me if I don't know what to do.
It's hard to create a meaning to anything, something with SUBSTANCE. Characters, a World, a Story, or even a basic plotline. Let's start with the simplest of simples; the world is just the setting, so it's easy. plop some ideas in there and it's a-okay because worrying about geography, councils, and all that other stuff wastes time by overthinking.
The story is the meat. It's generally what you believe, or what you want to show the world.
The characters are just as important, they're the vegetables. actually this is a bad analogy braindead st- self interruption
My problem is thinking.
People call me creative. Sure, I have interesting ideas. I don't believe them though. My brain is cold and empty.
It doesn't help that I've... probably? been running away from an existential crisis my whole life.
I don't understand people, I don't like the world, life seems pointless, rhetorical, and ironic.
If I were a character in a story, I wouldn't even deserve the spot of an extra. I'm not interesting. My opinions are unknown even to myself. Do I lose myself to find myself, or do I continue to ignore?
Ignore what?
Dammit.
I'm lost.
I can't make characters because I'm not a character...???
yeah i'm sorry i need a brain intepreter. your thoughts?