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Aug 2019

I'm real awkward with conversations, especially on the phone. sometimes I dunno how to end them or keep them going properly.

not sure how to advise here, the world i grew up in is so different now, I honestly feel i just came out of cryogenics with some people around me. It's like everyone demands attention these days. maybe you should learn to play chess, it give you brain training of staying ahead of people. :smiley:

hell yer, me too, especially if i get an answer phone , brain freeze ..dont even know my name age and address..um! hang up!

Overambition and hyperfixation. I get really excited about things I pour way too much money, time and effort into in really short bursts. Then after a while I drop it and feel like shit about wasting my time and looking like an idiot lmao... (Then I'm also incredibly socially inept)

I feel selfish for flat out asking for critiques and guidance.

Also I have an obsession with bland and normal stuff.

That I am stuck in a body that needs to eat and sleep all the time or it'll die :frowning:

if you want to swap it with my mums body that is failing and constantly in pain i'm sure she will agree the swap. enjoy what you have they dont last!

First, I'm loud. Holy shit, sometimes I just can't stop talking and my volume is uncontrollable. I pity anyone who has to deal with me when I'm in a snit.
Second, I'm lazy. I don't waste all of my free time but there's no denying that if I finally manage to limit the time I spend on my phone I can make more pages every week.
Third, I have a bunch of bad habits but the main thing that I hate currently is my bad posture. I sit like effing L from Death Note and my back is suffering but I can't stop, I have to constantly remind myself to sit properly.

The thing that annoys me the most is my voice. My voice sounds like a girl's voice but it's not really feminine at all. I LOVE to sing karaoke and when I sing my voice sounds mostly fine to my ears. Like perfect? No. But okay. Listenable.

But then when I listen to a recording of my voice, it's so, so terrible. Even just normal talking, it's terrible. Rarely at work I use the phone and it records the conversation and sometimes I'll have to listen to a recording and it's sooo horrible! Even my customer service voice is terrible.

As far as I'm aware being uncomfortable with your voice when you hear it recorded is a really common phenomenon, since we're all used to hearing our own voices differently than everyone else due to the sound traveling directly through our heads. I don't dislike my voice (except that it's pretty monotone) but whenever I hear it recorded I can't help but cringe really hard haha

I'm impulsive, socially awkward, mildly paranoid, hyper, poor memory and cannot pay attention sometimes at all. Probably all related to all my medical problems, god how I wish I was healthy haha i'll go to grave saying disabilities are a curse and shouldn't be celebrated.

Sometimes I can be pretty loud and swear a LOT around my friends, and that tendency paired with my annoying voice is pretty bad. Also when I speak my vocab can be pretty limited, especially when I'm exhausted from not enough sleep or something lol. I end up saying things are "cursed" a lot when I can't think of any other adjective to describe something. Gets old fast lmao.

It's not a personality trait, but my right ear makes a lot of ear wax and it builds up and makes my ear hurt XC

Oh god, I had that problem with my voice too! Unfortunately, I often have to listen to recordings of my voice nowadays since I have to use a speech-to-text program for writing and it often doesn't catch what I'm saying so I have to play the recordings back to myself to figure out what was the deal with a paragraph. I cringed really hard at the beginning but it got better with time and I'm mostly able to listen to it now without feeling anything special. I think it's mostly a matter of getting used to the sound. The more I listened to it, the less strange it sounded. I also tried with speaking in a different volume or with a different stress and it seemed to help a bit. Maybe you could try something like that too?

Not sure if you've researched stuff very far, but they make a wide variety of keyboards you can use and some are metal instead of plastic. Or a harder plastic. Think they're called "mechanical". They require a bit more force to hit the keys, and a usually super loud compared to the modern keyboards, but they're a joy to type on for people that are used to it. My favorite keyboard is actually an ergonomic one from Dell from the early 2000's, and I'm pretty sure it's a mechanical sort, since it's super loud. It's one reason why some of my typing habits are how they are - which hand hits the "y" for example - since the keyboard's divided in half. They also make keyboards that come in two halves, so you can space them as far apart as needed for your arms. There's also some I've seen that have different key types that you can swap out.

I think you can. Sorta. It's just making yourself write the things that keep distracting you. It may take a few days, even if it's just summarizing the ideas down. At least that works for me: take a few minutes to write the ideas, then the over active muse shuts up :thumbsup:


On the topic itself - I have very little self confidence in my writing. Not that I'm not any good in the actual practice of writing, thoughts, characters, story, blah blah. But actually having readers interested enough to do more than silently read. I recall the best I could choke out of someone who read one of my stories was "I think they need counselling". The world is falling apart around them and you think they need counselling?! Really?!
It's very annoying because I have that kind of feeling that is "I have to tell this story or I'll suffocate underneath it."

thanks for showing me that, it's not something i have considered before, I normally just get a cheap keyboard and use it till the letters wear off. I will look more into this Idea.

as for your self confidence situation, sadly it's becoming more and more common for readers not to give feedback and it's something that is so frustrating for both writers and artists. It takes such little effort for readers to give feedback and makes the difference between a creative person carrying on or thinking they suck and no bugger gives a damn. Stick with it and if you can find some proof readers.

And then, while doing this new idea, a newer idea will pop up :joy:
It will be rinse and repeat for me. I have so many ideas being shelved right now lol!

Haha I was about to say exactly that!
I dealt with my overload of ideas with mind maps for a while until I realized it was actually making things worse: it would give me new ideas from the old ones...

My best strategy to deal with too many ideas is not try to ignore or classify less important ones, but do an effort to focus on only the best ideas. The other ones are there but can stay in the background until I forget them or need them later. Does not work perfectly, but for me it's the most time saving strategy I found.